Have you ever tried to rush something or someone? I have! I have regreted it, but I tried it and for some reason I have had to learn my lesson the hard way numerous times. Kristina is the type of person that cannot be rushed. You don't push her. She was born six days late yet she walked before her first birthday while others were just beginning to crawl. She hid behind my legs in social settings and as she outgrew what my legs could cover she hid behind my back and my left arm. When she is nervous about a place she will lift my left arm and slide behind it and place my arm on top her as if to shield her from the world. But, she will walk on stage in a pageant or in a theater production like a pro. Never thinking twice about those around her. Driving has been no different. One moment she is on and drives like she has been driving since the day she was born but then tomorrow she is running mailboxes over. Shane gets so frustrated with her and he tries to push her and rush her and I just smile and tell him "Give her space, don't push her so hard, she will do it WHEN SHE IS READY!"
But, when Kristina is ready...she is READY! When she finally made her appearance into this world she was more beautiful than I could have imagined. Even though she walked earlier than other children she seemed to fall more and harder. She has just recently begun not hiding behind my back or under my left arm but she still must always know where I am in a crowd. If she cannot see me she will come find me or she will send me a quick text wanting to know my location. As long as she knows I am there, she is comforted. And driving will come to her as well. In her own time. One day she will wake up, put the keys in the car and drive like a pro from that day forward. (Relax! Because of this, she doesn't have her license yet so the roads are still safe for the time being! haha).
Kristina was never the "ugly duckling" but she did go through an "awkward" phase. Her arms and legs didn't seem to fit her body. Her big, huge blue eyes were twice as big as the rest of her face. Her hair was stringy and wouldn't cooperate with any sort of hairstyle. But, as she has starting maturing into a young woman she is absolutely gorgeous. I know, I'm a little prejudice but she is breathtaking. She came into her own, in her own time.
I truly believe God gave me Kristina to remind me time and time again that he is the one in control and that he will always be right there with me but he will do things in his own time. Often times I want to rush God. I want to pray for a situation and I want it right then. I don't want to wait, I am praying right now! I need it right now! But, oh when my prayer is answered it is so much better than I could have ever imagined! God's timing is perfect. I never understand why I am going through a storm while I am paddling to stay above water but when the seas have calmed and the winds have died down I completely understand. Why? Because he calmed the winds and the rains in his time not mine! It says in 1 Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time." Did you catch that? In due time. His time. When he is ready.
I don't know what is swirling around in her life today as you read this. I don't know what frustration or aggravation you are dealing with. But God knows. God knows the storm that is raging in your life and for whatever reason he has placed you there with a purpose. And, he will deliver you from that storm in his time when he is ready.
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