Phew...payday is finally here! Shane gets paid every Thursday but I only get paid on the 15th and the last day of the month and girlfriend let me tell you it has been a long two weeks and one day! I didn't think this day was ever going to get here! I don't have big plans for my paycheck...well...unless you count paying bills but just the satisfaction of getting paid makes coming to work worthwhile. Payday puts a little spring in your step and a smile on your face!
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Our bank account is like a revolving door. It comes in one day and out the very same day! I'm sure nobody else lives like that though, huh? hee hee I bet if I took a poll it would show that we all live like that in one way or another. Those who aren't financially challenged like me have some sort of revolving door in their life. It may be their time or something else but everyone knows what it is like to live with/in a revolving door.
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Some days I feel like I am trapped in one of the doors itself. I spin and spin never exiting out anywhere. I have my hands on the glass in front of me, head down and I just dig in with everything I have and push and push and push and go in one circle after the other. Never getting anywhere and just really making myself tired and sweaty.
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Some days I feel like I'm the pole in the middle of all the doors and I'm juggling an issue that has tucked itself neatly inside each little door compartment. Each issue spins around me like a carousel until I can eventually empty them all out.
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Some days I feel like I am the doorman standing on the outside watching it all spin out of a control. Everything is swirling so fast I can't even fathom reaching my hand in there to pull anything out. So, I just stand there and smile while the doors spin like an out of control tornado.
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Then there are my favorite days. Days that I am standing outside this revolving door and I'm pushing the doors! I tuck all my worries away into each compartment, take my hand and start spinning the doors myself. I spin them faster and faster and faster until eventually the doors fly off the go-zillion hinges and all the worries and cares go flying everywhere like paint would if I hooked it to a ceiling fan and turned the fan on high! Need new tires...Splat right against this wall. The mortgage is due and I'm $100 short...Splat right against that wall. My child is sick and I have missed too many days from work...Splat right against yet another wall. Worries and cares just flying about! Oh, I love those days!
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Wanna know something cool I've been learning? Every time my worry or care goes splat onto a wall it isn't hitting a wall at all. It is hitting Jesus Christ! He is catching everything and loading it up on his shoulders to carry for me. "Pile your troubles on God's shoulders — he'll carry your load, he'll help you out." Psalm 55:22 (MSG). I am beginning to discover that every time I stand outside that revolving door and spin it out of control myself I am just learning to let go and let God. I am learning that I am not in control but HE is. I am learning that as his child I must and I mean I must put my total faith and trust in him. If God can throw my sin as far as the east is from the west imagine what he can do with our cares and worries!
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Don't forget...his shoulders were big enough for the cross....
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