Done

It had been a long hard, trying few months. Every time I turned around it seemed like an argument was lurking behind a corner just waiting for the right moment to jump out with a surprise attack. Home life seemed hard, work seemed hard, shopping, driving, just everything. Nothing was easy during this time. And, the harder I tried to make things easier the harder everything got.

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Life went on like it typically does and it was as if I was standing there watching it all pass before me. I vividly remember standing alone on my front porch saying out loud "I'm done" as if someone else was standing there taking notes. I was tired of trying, tired of feeling as if I was the only one trying and tired of the life I had. After I uttered the words "I'm done" I don't even truly know if I knew what that meant. I'm not too sure what that accomplished but I do know that saying those words started a landslide that got even more out of control. Before I knew it everything had stopped and I had tons and tons of mud on me.

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As the months began to pass I found myself in church and little bit by little bit it was if someone was shoveling the mud off of me. Before I knew it I could see the light and I could see the one who was standing there with the shovel in his hand. I've always said I am the "unruly child of God" and if my mental picture was real I'm positive Jesus stood there, shovel in hand, shaking his head back and forth. I'm sure he was whistling and thinking "it's about time!"

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You know Paul got to this point in Corinth. He was preaching to the Jews and the Greeks all but begging them to come to know the Lord. After rejection and insults Paul finally threw his hands up and said "Your blood is upon your own heads—I am innocent. From now on I will go preach to the Gentiles.” Acts 18:6 (NLT). In short, he said "I'm done!"

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But, the Lord had other plans for Paul, just as he always does, and came to him in a vision one night and said "Don’t be afraid! Speak out! Don’t be silent! For I am with you, and no one will attack and harm you, for many people in this city belong to me." Acts 18:9-10 (NLT). There he was, shoveling mud off of Paul and reassuring him that he doesn't have to hide in the mud to be protected!

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My first birthday is fastly approaching and as I look back over these past few months I think back to the day I said "I'm done" and I find it funny that although I thought I was done He wasn't done...thank goodness! He tells us not to be afraid and not to be silent because after all He is with us! What better protection do we need? Life is alot of things but the one thing it is not is Done!!