As I pulled up to the red light I reached over to change the radio station when all of a sudden I was in the back seat. I could see the sky and I could feel alot of bumping and could hear crashing but I couldn't quite figure out what was going on and how in the world I had ended up in the back seat.
Once I felt my truck stop moving I slowly sat up and that is when I realized I had been in an accident. I got out of my truck, looked around and thought "Wow, that was weird." I wasn't seriously injured but rattled enough to not really know what to do or how to handle anything.
After speaking with the insurance company I was informed that my vehicle was a total loss. It was a birthday present from Shane. It was my "dream" truck and we had only made 5 payments on the truck so our feelings were quite hurt! Honestly, it was a blessing in disguise because we could not afford the payments.
As the days began to settle and we realized that we would receive enough insurance money to pay the truck off we began to start looking for another vehicle. The rental car was getting quite small and we had to do something. As Shane made his way to the car lot where we have done business for years I called the salesman and told him that I did not want a used truck. I had a brand new truck that I was driving and I refused to have a used one now. He met Shane at the door and gave him my instructions and they began to browse the new trucks. Ultimately, Shane found one, called me and upon my inspection we purchased the truck. It wasn't just like the one that had been a total loss but it was a nice truck but more importantly it was NEW!
As the months wore on I began to hate this new truck. The payments were too big, it was hard making that payment every month and honestly, it just didn't have the luster that I wanted in a truck. It drives nice, looks nice, is fairly comfortable but honestly...it's just a truck! Big deal! I finally came home one day and broke down and shared my feelings with Shane. I told him this just wasn't the truck and I really didn't like it and I wanted a used one! I wanted one with a smaller payment, something that would fit in our budget better! Well, as the ole story goes...Shane calls the salesman and tells him about this epiphany that I had. The salesman laughs and says "Shane, I hate to tell you this but due to the economy and the gas prices the truck that you bought can now be purchased for about $10,000 LESS than what you bought it for. Man, ya'll are stuck!"
Stuck!!!!! What?!?!? Once the dust settled and reality set in I realized what I had done...what we had done. Every single day of every single week of every single month I climb into that truck, crank it and thank God for lessons learned! See, He tried to save us from a payment we couldn't afford but since we were hard headed and had to do things our own way we are now living with the fire so to speak!
Oh how many times do we go through our lives thinking we know is best and do what we want, when we want without seeking God's guidance? I would like to say that now I seek God first every single time but that would be a lie. Many times I still get too big for my britches and think I know what's best but He always whips my tail right then and there and reminds me that He knows best!
"'For I know the plans I have for you,' says the Lord. 'They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.'" Jeremiah 29:11 (NLT). Lessons learned...He has a plan...He knows what is best for us...when are we going to let him reveal that to us?
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