Have you ever gone through something in life that forever left you scarred? Have you ever thought "Why me?" or "Why did I have to go through that?" or "Never again!" I have. Many times I will approach a situation and think "Here we go again!" and at that moment I tend to back off, put my wall up and turn around and run. My scars reminds me of that pain so I often stay hidden, protected.
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I was talking to my Mom one day about to deal with past scars, current fears, the unknown and her reply was simply Job 3:25 "What I always feared has happened to me. What I dreaded has come true." (NLT)
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As time has traveled on and life has happened I am beginning to understand that passage more and more. I am learning to not "fear" a situation but yet be "cautious." According to dictionary.com, the definition of fear is the feeling or condition of being afraid yet the definition of cautious is tentative or restrained.
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I do not want to go through life being afraid, scared to meet new people, scared to get hurt, scared to be me! Scars often hold me back. Scars keep me in what I think is a safe place. Scars prevent me from being a witness. The best definition of scar to me is the one used in botany...A mark indicating a former point of attachment. How true is that definition in your life? My scars are not burn marks or sores they are simply places that show a former point of attachment. Just like a knot on a tree!
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Although Job was a righteous man he was fearful, not cautious. He allowed his fears to control his actions, his thoughts, his life. That which he feared the most came upon him. Even when life is hard, times are tough I tell my Father "I will love you anyway!" When the storms of life come, when my heart gets new scars I tell my Father "I will love you anyway!" When I feel alone and feel as though I am most definitely walking through the valley of darkness I tell my Father "I will love you anyway!" My trials on earth, my heartaches that I feel are doing nothing but teaching me how to love my Father anyway! I am where I am because he has placed me here! I am who I am because he made me!
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